11 And he said, Go forth, and stand upon the mount before the Lord. And, behold, the Lord passed by, and a great and strong wind rent the mountains, and break in pieces the rocks before the Lord; but the Lord was not in the wind: and after the wind an earthquake; but the Lord was not in the earthquake:
12 And after the earthquake a fire; but the Lord was not in the fire: and after the fire a still small voice.
13 And it was so, when Elijah heard it, that he wrapped his face in his mantle, and went out, and stood in the entering in of the cave. And, behold, there came a voice unto him, and said, What doest thou here, Elijah?
Discerning God’s voice is not something you ever fully “arrive” at. Those were the freeing words that I heard this morning listening to Priscilla Shirer being interviewed on TBN; she was discussing her book “ Discerning the voice of God . “
Last night I found myself daydreaming about my future plans and the thought came across my mind that I hope by the time my dreams come to pass I would be able to hear God more clearly. I have felt that my own wishes may be getting tied up in what God wants for me leaving me unable to trust what I am hearing.
“I had to make a non-refundable deposit of $1,000 to be able to attend. I made the deposit and put my faith out for the rest of the money needed for the trip. Long story short, I was unable to come up with the rest of the funds and despite my best effort lost the deposit.”
This largely stems from a situation that occurred a few months ago. I felt it in my heart that maybe God wanted me to travel and so I signed up to a study abroad program at my University. I had to make a non-refundable deposit of $1,000 to be able to attend. I made the deposit and put my faith out for the rest of the money needed for the trip. Long story short, I was unable to come up with the rest of the funds and despite my best effort lost the deposit. I was so defeated, embarrassed, and disheartened. I was not upset at God rather I was furious with myself because it was obvious I had missed. I could have used that money towards my other priorities so I was left in an even worse position than I began with.
Priscilla spoke about times were we may have misheard God and because of his mercy it’s okay. She opened my eyes to the fact that our mighty God is able to use these failings as teaching moments that in the end benefit us. I felt a fresh breath enter my body putting me at ease once she said that. I had been so hard on myself for missing God that I failed to see the teaching moment in the whole experience.
I am now able to Identify that when making large decisions like that I have to have peace about it before making any moves. I can honestly say that I didn’t have peace before making the deposit but I wrote it off as fear. I now know the difference between fear and not having peace about something.
“I think this idea evolved from the culture we have, with the help of technology, that if we study hard enough and work hard enough we can master a subject. While that is true here on earth…”
Priscilla opened my eyes to the fact that we will never arrive at fully discerning what God says because he is not just a “big us” and like her I am glad he isn’t. God is beyond our comprehension so why do we humans expect to fully understand everything he tells us? He is the alpha and the omega and beyond anything that we can imagine or think of.
I think this idea evolved from the culture we have, with the help of technology, that if we study hard enough and work hard enough we can master a subject. While that is true here on earth we can not expect the same results applying that theory to God. Of Course we can learn as much as our little brains can handle about God, developing relationship with him, but we must not think we can contain him to our theories.
This has been so freeing to me, I will continue to draw closer to my God. There will be times when I miss it but it’s okay, he’s big enough and loving enough to get me back on track. If he can do it for me, he can do it for you!
Lord, thank you for your presence. Thank you for your word and for allowing us to commune with you. We give you all the glory and all the honor because it is already yours. Continue to speak Lord, your servants are listening. We want to see you move like never before, we want to hear you, we want your wisdom. Thank you Lord for the Holy-Spirit and the discernment in our lives. We praise you and ask everything in Jesus’ mighty name!!